Friday, December 31, 2004
happy NEW year!
About an hour to new years... haizz.. i actually cant wait..no.. not that i wanna celebrate.. how can i when there are so many people suffering and so many other dead... besides.. nowadays life just seems so.. sad... anyway.. im only lookin forward to the new years cause i look as it as a chance to start things anew... i promised myself that everything will be different next year.. there is so many things i wanna let go off.. and many others i cant wait to embrace.. i want to make it a good year.. i want to forget.. i want to live without certain ppl plagueing my every thought.. i hope i have the strength to do so.. oh god, please help me achieve this.. help me finally let go..
Tomorrow im gonna wake up and look at life differently.. hopefully.. things will get better...
hopefully...
babyheartz's black past on 10:48 PM
Thursday, December 30, 2004
o where o where can my HP be??
haha.. as i predicted.. nice day at stagearts today..but somethign SAD happened.. I LOST MY HANDPHONE!!.. im so sad man.. haizz.. cause i had so many friends numbers in it
now i have to collect them all over again.. but then again.. i always know that there is a reason 4 everything.. maybe its time i let go of some things in my past la.. maybe thats why i lost my hp.. time to let some ppl go.. anyway..i hope there is a spare phone somewhere that i can use first.. i will die if i dun have.. especially now that skool is starting... anyway.. im still at my aunts house.. everyone is asleep except me.. whats new rite?.. ahah.. i dunno la.. nowadays.. i cant sleep early and when i decide to try i cant sleep well.. its makin me feel a bit tired and restless.. but what to do? guess i shld trya warm class of drink? or counting sheep? anyway.. hopefully i will get a new phone in the next few months.. but if i can have any model to use now would be fine.. i just need to be able to contact ppl.. haizsz.. seems love is all around.. everywhere i turn there are couples.. aiyoh.. enough la... too much man.. not that i really mind la.. being single is great.. besides.. like my close firend says " dont have time 4 myself what more someone else??".. tru tru.. haha.. tomorrow my good friend comin back from HK.. next week can finally start skoolman.. thank god.. i wanna get yr 1 over with... my brain gettin damn rusty.. so i gotta study harder,, hmm. what else.. oh ya.. tomorrow going to make up the dancers 4 their concert... just now i saw them.. one by one the face so stress man.. im so glad i didnt go.. all look like so tired and sian.. i hope that they dun forget to have fun la.. i mean.. must take it seriously la.. but as far as im concerned, if ur not having fun doing what us supposed to be a recreation, stop.. cause then its just called work.. am i rite?? im sure they will do well tomorrow anyway.. its just sad that i cant watch them.. so sad.. but nvmla... see tham practice alot.. all the best to them!! hmm.. k la... i must force myself to sleep la.. else later when skool start cant sleep early then sleepy in skool.. them spend all mu $on coffee! k..bye peepz.. and remember.. if u can, send me ur numbers through friendster!!
babyheartz's black past on 1:37 AM
Wednesday, December 29, 2004
wednesday! yahoo..
hey there world! im so happy its
wednesday.. wahaha.. there is
make up and tmt combined!! it should be fun la.. my 2 departments together.. im now at my aunts house... with my 2 little cousins.. they so cute.. the boy keeps playing with this annoying sword which is so noisy.. but luckily the elder sister is better behaved... haha.. and u know.. the brother keeps cursing the computer to hang.. walau... this morning i was trying to apply for my elective.. but the computer kept on "hanging".. ahha.. thats why he keep chanting
"hang! hang!"
wahaha.. hmm.. k la.. now i have to rush to skool for make up.. and u know what?? rene forgot to bring the disket!! but she say she help me tell shidah la.. so hopefully i wont get killed by her...
AT LEAST I DID DO MY RESEARCH! hmm.. k.. have to be in skool in 2 hrs.. dunno how long the bus ride will take... i cannot be late so better go out early..
by the way.. juniors in stagearts still waiting 4 audition results!! wahaha.. nvm.. at least the seniors are trying to rush the ppl... hopefully within the next 2 weeks!! hmm.. k.. better go for real now.. later on tonight i make another entry k!! byeee...
babyheartz's black past on 1:43 PM
Tuesday, December 28, 2004
weisiang finished!
babyheartz's black past on 1:55 AM
simple little day
So what did i do today.. well.. i woke up pretty late.. since i slept late yesterday... played bejeweled.. and spent most of my time on my computer... hmm.. i met my mum at the mrt and accompanied her home.. so good rite? haha.. i dun want her to walk home alone la..
Anyway.. i got a call from my grandma.. haizz.. wed nite need to sleep at my aunts house.. to take care of the kids..the next morning.. then afternoon need to go to nyp to make up the dancers... oh ya.. and on wed afternoon have make up session... busy busy.. good la.. at least better then stayin at home!...
When i heard about the natural disaster that happened i was so worried.. cause one of my seniors have relatives in Aceh.. luckily everything seems to be ok.. phew! Anyway.. u wanna know somethin wierd.. my mum had a dream a few days ago.. she saw my family in a hdb flat.. trying to run 4 cover.. then a huge tidal wave washed up and destroyed the block in front of us... then a few day later.. this disaster happened.. wierd huh.. oooh... haha.. i dunno la.. but its just quite coincidental...
Hmm.. tomorrow got ot go 4 meeting.. it hink i'll come at 12 so i can see the dance performance! but the thing is.. what do i do from 1215 to 3.30? ahaha.. library i guess.. feel like walkin around skool.. and if really nothin to do.. go hang out at clubroom..IF its open.. i feel like going to a salon and just go 4 some treatment... just want to relax.. hah! i got that spa voucher..maybe i will use it.. hmm... kla.. i'll be back when i have something better to say... sorry 4 boring u guys!
" Everyday i think of him... Everyday i ponder who he's thinkin of... everyday i ponder who he feels for... and today, i ponder if he is who im thinking of and feeling for.."
babyheartz's black past on 1:55 AM
I finished my assignment!!
babyheartz's black past on 1:54 AM
mikio finished his assignment!
babyheartz's black past on 1:54 AM
STILL the most gorgeous guy in existence!
babyheartz's black past on 1:50 AM
WAH!!! the most gorgeous guy in existence!
babyheartz's black past on 1:50 AM
Some of the pretty gals from my sec school class.. pretty woman.. walkin down the street..
babyheartz's black past on 1:46 AM
i look so wierd.. wahaha... this is me and my "wife".. priscilla.. known her for many many years!
babyheartz's black past on 1:45 AM
hee! my buddies again.. this time im takin the photo! wooh.!
babyheartz's black past on 1:43 AM
recent photo.. u cant see clearly la.. but i finally have long hair..
babyheartz's black past on 1:42 AM
Ok.. so thats MIkio... buggin me with the phone while im tryin to type!
babyheartz's black past on 1:35 AM
My dear friends in NYP.. mikio is takin the photo so u cant see him!
babyheartz's black past on 1:34 AM
Monday, December 27, 2004
nobody's listening...
I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
handfull of anger, held in my chest
And everything left’s a waste of time
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else’s more
I’m riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it’s better I can’t keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood sweat and tears
The uphill struggle over years the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you.....
babyheartz's black past on 1:59 AM
bored to death
Hmm.. today didnt do much la... just sat at home.. chat with friends and then watch tv.. and some house chores...
im sooo bored.. luckily went to the night market in the evening.. got a nice skirt, shirt and sunglasses... my mum bought some stuff too.. Well.. was suppose to go accompany my "wife" to study tomorrow.. but change of plans.. so i guess tomorrow just hang out in school or at home.. decided im gonna sit and concentrate on my writing la... have been neglecting my stories.. haha.. hmm.. tuesday i have a tnt meeting... wed should be fun... make up with tmt ppl... thursday must make up the dancers... haizz... full week again.. better go study a bit b4 school start.. dun want to be completely rusty man.. my new timetable looks quite good.. not too bad.. i gotta study very hard next semester la.. i have to get minimum B for every subject.. really must buck up.... no c's man! i hope i can do it.. OMG... even at this very moment im bored! haizz.. what can i do! guess i shld try to sleep? but im not sleepy... ARGH!! what am i gonna do..................
babyheartz's black past on 1:31 AM
Saturday, December 25, 2004
"Lying From You"
When I pretend everything is what I want it to be
I look exactly like what you always wanted to see
When I pretend, I can’t forget about the criminal I am
Stealing second after second just cause I know I can but
I can’t pretend this is the way it’ll stay
I’m just(trying to bend the truth)
I can’t pretend I’m who you want me to be, so
I’m[Chorus](Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now(Let me take back my life,I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now(The very worst part of you is me)
I remember what they taught to me
Remember condescending talk of who I ought to be
Remember listening to all of that and this again
So I pretended up a person who was fittin’ in
And now you think this person really is me and
I’m(Trying to bend the truth)
But the more I push the more
I'm pulling away 'cuz I'm[Chorus](Lying my way from you)
No no turning back now(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is ME)
This isn’t what I wanted to be, I never thought that what I said would
have you running from meLike This
This isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said wouldhave you running from me
Like ThisThis isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said wouldhave you running from me
Like ThisThis isn’t what I wanted to be,
I never thought that what I said wouldhave you running from meLike This
[Chorus](You)No turning back now(I wanna be pushed aside so let me go)
No no turning back now(Let me take back my life I’d rather be all alone)
No turning back now(Anywhere on my own cuz I can see)
No no turning back now(The very worst part of you)
(The very worst part of you is me)
love this song.. lyrics i can relate with...
LINKIN PARK RULEZ!!!!!!!!
babyheartz's black past on 7:10 PM
happy christmas and a merry new year..
haha.. today is Christmas.. falalalalalalalala... haha.. hmm.. today my karma a bit off balance.. not use to siting at home on a sat.. normally go for drama... but this week and next week dont have.. so sad.. anyway.. all juniors srill excited or should i say impatient about audition results.. wonder who will get it.. haha.. i know i didnt do well 4 audition la.. so im happily lookin forward to being a part of the backstage.. make up and tmt.. lots of work! but doesnt matter to me though.. trust me.. if i get any part i will be happy as hell.. but if i dont.. then nevermind.. there will be many other shows in future.. but... this one is a serious play.. once in awhile they have... so ok la.. i have to admit if i dun get even a small part i willbe sad for awhile.. but never the less.. its ok..
The seniors are worried about juniors "fighting" once the results are out.. but i think its pretty normal la.. i mean.. i dun think there will be war.. but i think its expected that not everyone will be happy.. after all.. u cant go pleasing everyone.. but i wish more juniors will turn up.. i dont think they have any idea what tough jobs the seniors have.. if they are to strict, ppl quit.. if they are too kind, ppl take advantage and do what they like.. so if u are a stagearts junior and u have not been going, GIVE UR SENIORS A BREAK AND TURN UP! ahaha.. really la guys..
hmm.. my aunt and her family came over today.. got to see my cousins! haha.. they just came back from U.S.. wish i went with them.. wahaha.. but nevermind.. one day i will go.. we watch tv and then had lunch and talked about their trip.. they showed the photos also.. hmm.. suddenly i want to eat pizza... cause i remember my aunt talk about the pizza there... yum yum..
k la... i think i wanna do my "assignment" that ros give.. till next time! woooooooooh!
babyheartz's black past on 6:51 PM
Friday, December 24, 2004
things i'll never say
Things I'll Never Say"
I’m tugging at my hair
I’m pulling at my clothes
I’m trying to keep my cool
I know it shows
I’m staring at my feet
My cheeks are turning red
I’m searching for the words inside my head
[Pre-Chorus]
(Cause) I’m feeling nervous
Trying to be so perfect
Cause I know you’re worth it
You’re worth it
Yeah
[Chorus]
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you... away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
It don’t do me any good
It’s just a waste of time
What use is it to you
What’s on my mind
If it ain’t coming out
We’re not going anywhere
So why can’t I just tell you that I care
[Pre-Chorus]
[Chorus]
What’s wrong with my tongue
These words keep slipping away
I stutter, I stumble
Like I’ve got nothing to say
[Pre-Chorus]
Guess I’m wishing my life away with these things I’ll never say
If I could say what I want to say
I'd say I wanna blow you...away
Be with you every night
Am I squeezing you too tight
If I could say what I want to see
I want to see you go down
On one knee
Marry me today
Guess, I’m wishing my life away
With these things I’ll never say
These things I’ll never say
babyheartz's black past on 1:35 AM
meet the FOCKERS
Today i went out with my lifelong friend
Priscilla... i grew up with this girl so she is one of my alltime best friends.. We went to watch
meet the Fockers... It was hilarious.. haha.. laughed and laughed.. i'd give it a 7 out of 10... imagine.. her name is
MARTHA FOCKER.. just say it out loud and u will get why its funny! im lookin forward to watch Spongebob squarepants the movie.. and also A series of Unfortunate events... which is starring Jim carrey... not to mention, a new spielberg movie called War of Worlds... Phantom of the opera looks interesting.. hmm.. i have been watchin alot of movies.. caught Oceans twelve the other day.. Not bad at all... a7 1/2 la... Anyway... i had early dinner at
Yoshinoya.. salmon bowl.. yum yum.. wanted to eat salmon and beef.. but portion is too much.. wasn't that hungry.. hmm.. got home pretty late.. almost midnight.. and tomorrow have to meet Amy to take my Gingerbread thingy... and need to see lecturer too! haizz.. looks like another day of no rest tomorrow!...
babyheartz's black past on 1:13 AM
Thursday, December 23, 2004
lalalalala
HELLO WORLD! haha.. today is a good day to start a blog.. cause im soooo HIGH!
High on LIFE to be exact! finally things are starting to work out for me! somethings are finally going right.. im starting to be happy! the best thing in my life now is
StageArts.. i don't know how im going to survive without it.. it's the only thing keeping me going.. hmm. anyway, i guess i shld intro myself... if i had to choose five words to describe me? i would say :
Caring, Reliable, Affectionate, Funny, Temperemental... yeah.. Thats about right.. anyway... look forward to sharing my life with u ppl! whoever u are.. ahhaha... alrighty then..
babyheartz's black past on 1:46 AM
