Tuesday, February 22, 2005
its beeN awhile....
im so sorry that i've not been updating.. haizz.. been super buzy.. so hectic.. well.. im feeling kinda depressed nowadays.. im just mighty sick of nursing.. i just.. haizz.. i really dont want to be here anymore.. ive got no passion for it.. wish i could go to mass com now.. but what to do.. im totally stuck.. it really sucks that i come to skool everyday with no purpose.. just aimlessly going for lectures and all that.. haizz.. im just so trapped!well.. my good friend dan is really happy.. he ha s a girlfriend.. AHAHA... so cute la he.. then friday i have this reunion bbq to go to.. dunno if i want to go.. NO MOOD to do anything!!!wah.. well.. on a good note.. production stuff is going quite well. had the photoshoot recently.. for the poster.. ahaha.. can u imagin ur face plastered all over the school?? ahaha... SO BLOODY COOL!.. erm..went for student mentorship camp.. quite cool... but tiring.. well. at least now im a student mentor la..hehe..a close friend of mine is being bothered by this girl who LIKES him.. ahah.. so fun to see how she reacts in front of him! but they would make a cute couple.. ahaha.. but.. knowing this friend of mine.. doubt it will happen la.. oh ya.. some sad news.. mik left nursing.. well.. definately will miss him! but.. i just wish him the best.. hope he is happy... to mik: i will miss ur jokes boy!haha.. take care always.. keep in touch.. frenz always!haizz.. hectic hectic.. just wish i could disappear for a month.. just get away from everything and everyone.. maybe i would stop being so sad then.. i know.. i look happy all the time right'? well.. only those who know me know what hell im in.. and also. thanks to those who are trying to provide me with support.. i appreciate it alot.. : Di watched constantine.. quite cool movie.. i got lots of shows i've yet to watch.. hopefully i will soon!hmm.. not much else.. except for one mini detail.. there is this guy.. i know him a few months ago.. but from the moment i saw him.. i felt this strong connection.. ofcourse.. im not sure if its in a romantic way.. but i swear it feels like i've known him for ever.. but i know we just met.. ever have that feeling? i dunno.. i dun see him everyday.. but when i do.. something in his eyes tells me he feels it too.. no.. its not love and all that crap.. its just a sense of familliarity.. he's quite a good friend now.. but still.. there are those moments that we would just look at each other in the eyes.. just for a split moment.. but seems like a million msgs are passing through.. i never felt that way b4.. but.. there is just something about this guy.. anyway.. he's alot of fun as a friend la.. and fortunately.. no one knows who im talking about! haha.. well.. i like to keep my private life private after all.. CHEERS!
babyheartz's black past on 6:20 PM
Sunday, February 20, 2005
Watch THIS!!!
OMG.. gotta watch this.. hehe.. GILMORE RULES!
http://www.gilmoregirls.org/multi/GG215-trl.mov
babyheartz's black past on 3:45 PM
Wednesday, February 09, 2005
Robbie...
fav robbie williams song.. gosh.. he's great..
Loose lips sunk ships
I'm getting to grips with what you said
No it's not in my head
I can't awaken the dead day after day
Why don't we talk about it?
Why do you always doubt that there can be a better way?
It doesn't make me wanna stay
Why don't we break up?
There's nothing left to say
I've got my eyes shut
Praying they won't stray
And we're not sexed up
That's what makes the difference today
I hope you blow away
You say we're fatally flawed
Well I'm easily bored, is that ok?
Write me off your list
Make this the last kiss, I'll walk away
Why don't we talk about it?
I'm only here don't shout it
Given time we'll forget
Let's pretend we never met
Why don't we break up?
There's nothing left to say
I've got my eyes shut
Praying they won't stray
And when I'm sexed up
That's what makes the difference today
I hope you blow away
Screw you, I didn't like your taste
Anyway, I chose you and that's all gone to waste
It's Saturday, I'll go outAnd find another you
babyheartz's black past on 9:34 PM
let love be my energy...
haha.. i heard this song on nickelodeon (yes.. i watch nickelodeon.. laugh all u want.. haha..) ..it was one of the songs from
spongebob the movie.. called psychic wall.. the lyrics kinda dun make sense.. but ok.. its and ok song.. haha.. i also heard the new version of the
spongebob theme song sung by avril.. its pretty nice..
ROCK ON!.. haha... LAME>... i know..
anyway.. im finding it really difficult to find motivation to study nowadays.. i really want to do well. but i cant seem to get any fuel in me.. everytime i pick up a book all i want to do it put it back down.. most lectures are becoming a bore.. haizz.. i dunno what im gonna do.. sometimes i wonder if i can really survive these 3 years.. nursing.. haizz...
hopefully i'll get some studying done during the next few days.. my minds been preoccupied lately.. with different ppl.. different things.. there ar so many thigs i wanna do... but i cant .. for so many reasons.. i
feel like i've lost my will to live.. nothing seems worth doing anymore.. haizz...
well.. i'll check in back later... gonna go do stuff( not sure exactly what)...
Jess Mariano rocks..
babyheartz's black past on 7:48 PM
Tuesday, February 08, 2005
eyes..
there it was again.. his eyes, so deeply filled with emotions, but yet he looked so nonchalant..
so what happens when the one person who broke ur heart, is the only person u want to talk about it with.. or the person that made u cry, was the one person that could dry ur tears?
who do u turn to then?
just a lovely thought.. haha.. inspired by some story i read.. lovely isnt it.. haha..
babyheartz's black past on 5:36 PM
Thursday, February 03, 2005
hehe... my make up masterpiece!
babyheartz's black past on 9:20 PM
oooh..scary..
babyheartz's black past on 9:18 PM
group project at my house!
babyheartz's black past on 8:35 PM
.jpg)
after a massive car crash! hahaha!!
babyheartz's black past on 8:28 PM
jjjjjjeeeessssss!!!!
babyheartz's black past on 8:25 PM
<<<<<<
>>>>
babyheartz's black past on 8:24 PM
Tuesday, February 01, 2005
bla bla bla
Bla bla... why is it everything seems to be like that today.. haizz... but at least we all had a bit of fun in the afternoon.. i just felt like going out of skool.. so my frenz and i walked to AMk during our break... went to play drums in the arcade... the guys paid ofcourse..haha.. played that drum game.. kinda FUN la.. haha.. we played some other stuff also..
hmm.. the rest of the ay not much.. i just finished watching some cbt on oral meds... wah.. so many things to check.. haha.. then meeting naz at 7pm.. then got more work to do.. haizz.. the 2 days CNy hols will be for me to catch up man.. im so far behind!! must do well!! kk.. till tonight or something...hope things wont cont to be bla bla...
babyheartz's black past on 6:37 PM
.jpg)
