Saturday, March 26, 2005
bargain central...
OMG.. bugis is the best place to shop man.. i had so much fun.. i bought a shirt.. was so reasonable.. and a gorgeous pair of green shoes.. a bit hip hop kinda sports thing.. it was a STEAl.. super cheap.. my mum dun believe me! hahaha.. raizan came along with us.. and he was so jealous.. haha.. so cute man.. cause we both love green so much.. but he didnt have money to shop.. i did.. hehe... thinkin of going back there to grab a few more shirts.. haha..weeeeeh~!We then went to far east.. i made a personalised hat.. which was reasonable.. haha.. naz had to ruch of to work so i went home too.. boutght alot of sushi for dinner.. YUMMY!so rehearsal was fine today... i didnt really put my 100% in cause i was so sleepy.. and like its in the morning.. but i think it will be fine la.. haha.. its getting there...well.. not much else.. haha.. thats all! byeee~!
babyheartz's black past on 10:37 PM
retail therapY!
hmm... tomorrow 9am rehearsals.. haizz.. i feel like tomorrow is the actual performance man.. like nervous! wahaha.. well.. alot of my darlings are coming down to watch next week.. hehe.. so happy.. Love ya guys man... i really needed the moral support.. haha.. anyway.. me going shoppin tomorrow.. just a little bit la.. haha.. wanna get shoes.. and some shirts.. hmm.. retail therapy! woooh.. going with naz and my dear prissy.hmm.. should be fun! haha.. so excited.. hope deary wont be late again..hehe.. she always is.. :D
wad else... oh ya.. im feeling way better.. think whatever i was feeling is going away.. YAY!
well.. just pray all goes well in the coming weeks.. sorry if im unable to blog.. will be super hectic.. till next time!
babyheartz's black past on 12:07 AM
Friday, March 25, 2005
phew.. a good day at last...
Things are finally starting to look up. i had a good rehearsal yesterday.. i think i was finally in character.. hehe.. almost made raizan and idah cry... made me happy that there was an impact.. hiazz.. still got alot to work on..
well.. isaw the poster.. its so kewl.. a poster with ur face on it! OMG.. super kewl!.. haha..
met shasha yesterday.. such a nice girl.. super sweet..
my "dear" didnt come for rehearsals again.. but lucky he coming tomorrow.. he better.. if not i will kill him...
erm.. not much else.. i just need to start studying la.. exams round the corner... well... catch up soon.. byeee..
(the rooof is onnnn FIREEEE!!!) hahahahaha
babyheartz's black past on 2:17 PM
Thursday, March 24, 2005
WEt Wet DaY
OMG.. what a crazy day yesterday.. met nana after claszs and headed towards orchard.. Dhoby ghaut actually... met with ros naz and arifah.. were looking for costumes for production... naz and nana got 2 gorgeous tops and arifah got the most adorable pair of shoes.. its black and has a huge ribbon. perfect for a "5 year old"...
So anyway.. when heading back to skool we decided to go by the back route.. and halfway through it started raining like crazy.. we were all soaking wet... the shelter we got was fortunately at the back of some fan looking thingy.. so it was like a giant hairdryer.. haha.. so funny.. imagine 5 girls drying themselves out.. then suddenly 2 shadows appeared to save us! haha.. actually me senior called 2 other seniors to come down with umbrella's.. THanks!!
so when we got back to the clubroom we were all still wet.. so we just grabbed some shirts and pants and temporarily changed into them.. thank god for dry clothes.. haha.. me and arifah wore those hospital scrubs.. haha.. for a moment made me think bout me wanting to do OT if im gonna be stuck in nursing.. well.. alot of them had a good laugh.. although i didnt really laugh so much.. well.. cause of the stuff thats bothering me.. moving on...
haha.. well.. im getting a bit nervous about production... haizz... worried... i get butterflies just thinkin bout it.. haha.. though yes i have remembered my lines.. but.. im still abit unconfident...
That friend of mine that i've been worried about seems to be back to his normal self a bit.. still can see he is still a bit moody;.. by he's better.. im so glad... :D
LAter got clinical theory test.. i have not really studied thoroughly.. but i know my basics... hopefully it will be enough.. OMG,. im typing so fast cause im all hyped on coffee.. oh yah.. did i say that i didnt sleep last night.. took coffee witht he intent on studying.. but i couldnt concentrate so u know wad i ended up doing? i cleaned my room.. haha.. my mom was slightly shocked to wake up and see my room clean.. (okok.. its usually messy.. i admit..hehe..)
so i only studied some this morning.. so.. yah.. praying that it wont be sooo hard la... just want a B at least...
Well.. its a busy day ahead of me.. got rehearsal at TFA later.. haha... hope all goes well... considering im sleep deprived and the only thing keeping me from falling flat on the floor is the coffee in my veins.. PRAISE THE WORLD FOR COFFEE!!
(do u have any idea how fast im typing due to the coffee...)
babyheartz's black past on 12:38 PM
Heaven knows...
He's always on my mindFrom the time I wake up 'til I close my eyesHe's everywhere I goHe's all I knowAnd though He's so far awayIt just keeps gettin' stronger, every dayAnd even now he's goneI'm still holding onSo tell me where do I start'Cause it's breakin' my heartDon't wanna let him goCHORUSMaybe my love will come back some dayOnly heaven knowsAnd maybe our hearts will find a wayOnly heaven knowsAnd all I can do is hope and pray'Cause heaven knowsMy friends keep tellin' meThat if you really love himYou've gotta set him freeAnd if he returns in kindI'll know he's mineSo tell me where do I start'Cause it's breakin' my heartDon't wanna let her goCHORUSWhy I live in despair'Cause wide awake or dreamingI know she's never thereAnd all the time I act so braveI'm shaking insideWhy does it hurt me soMaybe my love will come back some dayOnly heaven knowsAnd maybe our hearts will find a wayOnly heaven knowsAnd all I can do is hope and pray'Cause heaven knowsHeaven knows
babyheartz's black past on 12:43 AM
time in a bottle...
Jim Croce
Time In A Bottle
if I could save time in a bottle
the first thing that I'd like to do
is to save every day 'til eternity passes away
just to spend them with you
if I could make days last forever
if words could make wishes come true
I'd save every day like a treasure and then
again I would spend them with you
but there never seems to be enough time to do the
things you want once you find them
I've looked around enough to know that
you're the one I want to go through time with
if I had a box just for wishes
and dreams that had never come true
the box would be empty except for
the memories of how they were answered by you
but there never seems to be enough time to do the
things you want once you find them
I've looked around enough to know
that you're the one I want to go through time with.
heard this song and cried..its just so sad...
babyheartz's black past on 12:39 AM
Tuesday, March 22, 2005
i walk alone...
so yah.. tada.. changed my blogskin a few days ago.. i love it cause it resembles all that i am.. i walk alone.. i walk alone...
mixed emotions im feeling.. dunno wad to do about it.. the more i try to forget.. the more it haunts me.. i cant run from it.. its everywhere.. i cant escape.. i just cant.. im trapped.. and im forced to deal with it.. but i dunno how to deal with it.. no one can help me but me but how do i when i dont know how.. i just want to have partial amnesia and forget i feel this way.. cause i know its useless.. fruitless.. wasted emotions.. and its so draining.. im just sooo tired.. i just want to disappear... to forget.. just want to.. die for awhile and wake up a new person.. not trying to be melodramatic.. but really.. im so tired of these emotions.. leave me alone.. just leave me damn alone.. please...
Thanks to he who is offering his help... but i cant take his offer, i cannot tell.. for a million reasons.. and he too cannot accept my hand of help for his own reasons... so blindly supporting each other we will.. and may we both pull through..
babyheartz's black past on 12:31 AM
Monday, March 21, 2005
dead
im frustrated, tired, sad, angry, crying, screaming, punching, dying, yelling, pissed, lonely, tumbling, drowning, shivering, spinning, begging, amused, falling, longing, tearing, blinded, offended, crawling, bleeding..... And My Soul Is DEAD....
babyheartz's black past on 11:52 PM
10 more days..
haizz.. wat can i say..
10 days to production... im super nervous... then a friend of mine. he is havin problems.. haizz.. it bothers me to see him so depressed and sad.. wish he would let me help him.. but.. well what can i do.. i think he needs sometime to think.. so im gonna give him that la.. just hope he will feel better...
today my friend IDAH bday..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! WOHOO! ur 18!..haha...
hmm.. my heart beating s fast.. i dunno la.. this is like my first really major performance inpoly.. i've done it in sec school yes.. but.. not in poly.. haizz... see la.. just thinking about it gives me butterflies in my stomach.. i dun even know why.. not like i've never performed b4 lehs.. ive even done it SOLO so many times..hope all goes well..
k.. im gonna be very busy for the next 2 weeks so sorry if i dun update k.. see ya..
babyheartz's black past on 9:02 AM
