i walk alone...

I don't care if u like me. I don't care if u hate me. I know im not easy to live with but neither are u. I am complicated. I am realistic. I am pessimistic. i am brutally honest. Don't like it? Let me pretend i care..

Thursday, April 14, 2005

finally!... thank god..

OMG.. i have been trying to enter this post for like the past week.. my com keeps shutting down the internet explorer halfway! i retyped like 3 times la.. so irritating.. just as im about to post the thing shuts down and all my typing is like gone.. ARGH!.. i hate my com... stupid spywares and viruses... grrrrr...

ok la.. now i try to remember what i wanted to type that day...

i notice that i havent been talking much about wats been happening since production... haha.. or even during production.. well.. im gonna try to rewind back k...

been spending the whole of my study week with ma SA darlings... arifah, raizan, nizam,faisal ( tupai, untah, kambing, biskut respectively) and occassionally with naz... at school... always with the intention of studying la.. but well.. haha.. u can guess the results...

anyway.. i just love these ppl.. really one of the greatest bunch of ppl u will ever get the pleasure of meeting.. i have so much fun with them and im happy too.. which is a big thing for me.. i dun feel that happy too often.. so im glad i found ppl that brighten up my life sooo much.. LOVE YA GUYS!...

not only are the great to hang out with... u should try shopping with them.. super fun la.. haha.. and i have to say.. that we all have a good sense of style!

ok.. so recently alot of my "friends" have been disapointing me la.. like for example.. ppl who promised to watch the production but didnt turn up.. and it made me think... thank god that i am not emotionally attached to ma friends la.. by emotionally attached... i mean that i dun rely on them for things, dun expect anything from them la.. god i remember those days when i was naive and actually thought that the word friendship meant something.. but over the years i realised that its just a word to represent ppl who interact with each other.. thats all.. and im so glad i made those rulez for myself all those months ago.. i mean.. if i was still the old me, i would have been upset and sad that those friends didnt turn up.. but now.. i figure what the heck.. if they had wanted to com and support me.. they would have.. its that plain and simple yeah.. no use stressing over.. so yah...

Those who thought i was so cynical for thinking of friendship this way.. all i have to say is... u have to be me to know... besides.. Life itself proved to me that i was right... so how bout u try get back to real life? and i guarentee u will realise that im right...

so 3 papers are over.. finally... left one more tomorrow.. last one then its over! ahha.,. okok.. i know still got attachment... but id rather go for that then study for exams man.. Saturday danceworks finals! cant wait.. hope Smudge wins!!!!!!!!!

babyheartz's black past on 12:05 PM