About
name: Annur
nick: Heartz
school: Nyp
birthday: 01/06
hobbies: Hang out, philosophical conversations,movies, music, books, writing songs, writing stories, Chillin.
fav music:Muse.Jason Mraz.Franz Ferdinand.Nickleback.Maroon 5.Gorillaz.Dishwalla.Tori Amos.From Autumns To Ashes.Jazz.
Mini Bio
Obsessed with Fire/ Burning
BAnd Muse.
colour Black.
Gadget Creative zen microphoto.
Food Whatever i feel like eating.
Drinks Water/Pokka tea.
Occupation Student.
Guilty pleasure Whipped cream.
Can't live without Handphone.
Will die without My realism friends.
Who are Tasha. Yana. Ian. Khai. Dan. Sherm. Has. Jem. Anil. Trent. and gang...
Saturday, May 27, 2006
( the following is just me blabbing whatever i feel at the moment.. The tone is inconsistent and so does my mood.. but hey.. thats me)
Its amazing how some people can be extremely self serving.. As in.. blindly see things only their way and don't ever think about other's point of view.. It's like pot calling the kettle black u know? This particular person thinks that i don't know what she thinks of me.. or that i honestly am so stupid that i dunno whats going on around me..
It's about time i let you people know.. that i KNOW.. i just DON'T CARE..
haha.. it's really that simple..
Yes i know how i am.. i know im direct.. i know i can be overpowering.. i know i can be a total bitch.. trust me i know exactly who i am.. and like i said before.. im not gonna change myself for anyone..
Ask yourself this.. Why is it that i affect you so? Is it cause you choose to let me affect you? Can't be that someone force you to let me affect u right? Even when i hardly contact you.. you go and on about me.. Why not let go and just move on with your life. Stop being such an over sensetive emotional DRAMA queen.. Not the whole world revolves around your silly childish world you know..
The truth? the truth is that you are so waaaaaaay in over your head.. the truth is that.. you need to grow up and stop living in this fantasy world where everything is suppose to go your way.. FOR GOD SAKES GROW UP!
Once upon a time we used to be good friends.. ( on some distant level )... but then.. you changed.. and i couldn't stand to be friends with you anymore.. cause u betrayed me.. you lied to my face.. and everyone around me was telling me how you badmouthed me.. and honest to god.. i didn't think you were that type of person.. and i know that i definately don't know you.. cause i thought you were a good person.. obviously i was wrong.
And please don't flatter yourself.. i really have no interest in your work.. and i promise i will keep our interactions during our forced time workin to bare minimum.. Trust me i'm not looking forward to it either. but i will have to do what i have to do.. My juniors are more important that this stupid vendetta..
I just find it so wierd that people i dont care about make me the topic in their life.. i mean god.. its like i cant care less about you yet i seem to be the only thing you seem to talk about.. er... haha.. see what's wrong with the picture?
You see apparently your so busily caught up in my faults.. that you don't even see your own.. and trust me.. if you think that everyone else thinks your perfect.. you are dead wrong.. Worst of all.. is not bothering to find out entire stories before forming an opinion.. and boy are you full of opinions..
By the way.. i have enough friends.. i don't need to seek attention.. and i have my reasons for wanting to leave.. the bigger picture is my own personal life which is none of your concern.. just like whatever else i do.. besides.. why on earth are you complaining.. you should be happy if i leave.. Unfortunately.. cause of circumstances.. i can't go.. I'm staying as a favour to someone whom i love dearly..
So all in all.. i just wanna say to this person.. because i know who i am.. i am deeply sorry for anything i may have done or said that has hurt you.. Including all of the above ( i rant).. I know i am capable of hurting people without realising what i'm doing.. it is a flaw of my personality.. but like i said.. Sometimes it's good to reflect on yourself as well although it's easiest to blame everything on someone else.. Whatever of your pain is my fault.. i am sorry.. but i hope you are grown up enought to take your share of the cake too.. No matter how bitter it may be.
So from now.. just like i am with everyone.. i will be civilised with you.. i dont want to waste energy on this anymore..neither should you.. and more importantly, there are more things in life that need to be concentrated on other than this.. I just want to finish up poly without all this drama.. and spend time with my true friends whom i love.. It's better if we both stop wasting energy on something so insignificant.. Whether you want to be civilised and normal back.. is up to ur own maturity.. but dont do it just to prove your mature.. do it cause you are mature..
I have spoken my peace..
babyheartz's black past on 12:12 AM
